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| 10:52pm 12/07/2006 |
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Hi,
Im bulimic, its been 4 years since my first purge. I usually binge to the point where I cant fit anything more in and purge and sometimes binge like this witout purging. Today after a binge I had the strangest sensation- one moment my stomache was really full and the next it was emptier and my lower part suddenly expanded. There was no pain involved, just the sensation of something slushing about inside. Im really scared it might be a stomache rupture. Ive read about it on the internet a bit and I know that binges cause stomache tissue to die and Im scared that maybe it didnt hurt because it was along the part of the dead tissue in my stomache. The rupture might be small thats why I just feel a small burning. I dont know, maybe Im being paranoid but Im shaking with nerves. Please tell me what the symptoms of a rupture are and how long it takes for them to develop, how severe are they and stuff like that. Im sick with panic.
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| 04:47pm 17/03/2005 |
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ok i have a stupid problem.
i wanted to ask...is there any specific skills you need to learn to give a guy a blowjob? I tried this once and the guy just totally did not respond.I tried tightening my lips, sucking, helping with my hand and still nothing. I found this weird coz guys are usually very keen on recieving blowjobs and i dont think every girl is an expert straight away but still gives pleasure to the guy. Is this something you have to learn? is there anyway to practice it on anything? |
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| 02:03pm 02/02/2005 |
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hey i have this stupid problem- i dont have the crackto go with my sims 2. can anyone tell me where i can download it and gimme step by step tips how to install it?? it be MOST grateful(i wanna PLAY!!! :o) |
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| 05:33pm 19/01/2005 |
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hey
its gonna be realy hard for me asking you this coz it might just sound downright barbaric. But if u have any info or self experiance please share it...
If an anorexic does get pragnant and just keeps on fasting-can hat kill the baby? like starve it?
Sorry for that :o( |
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| 08:58am 03/08/2004 |
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nie wiem od czego zaczac. wszystko sie pojebalo bo mi sie nudzi. Thank god im goin to greece in 4 days so at least i can cut myself free out of all this bullshit for a couple of days.
C {)i(} Y {)i(} P {)i(} I {)i(} S
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I have abosloutely no idea what the hell is goin on between me and him right now. Hes just so....complicated. Ore maybe it's the fact hes just playing. Yeah, I think thats it actually. Rozgryzlam go..bo sama tak chcialam zrobic. Nawet chcialam sie pospieszyc przed koncem wakacji zeby potem jakos dac se spokoj , zeby uniknac takiej sytuacji jak przedtem. No to trafila kosa na kamien. Alr na poczatku nawet...bylo tak fajnie :o)
W czwartek zaprosil mnie do kina. No ale nic specjalnego, cypis to cypis czesto zaprasza. Poszlismy se...ale jakos nie trafilismy do kina tylko do depo. zabawilismy tam jakos0.5h, przenieslismy sie do tropicala. Stamtad on, Joey i beata mieli isc do mnie na filmik. Do domu z przyczyn technicznych dotarlismy tylko ja i cypis. yhhhhh nop i ogladamy, ogladamy. jakos tak sie przytulilam (tak nawet nie zeby cos tam tylko mialam na to ochote) on mnie tez objal i sobie siedzielismy. Nie wspomne o fali spojrzen i aluzji w wczesniejszej fazie tego wieczoru...jego tonie jka mowil niektore, banalne rzeczy. Poszedl...(no to koles wracasz pieszo)
napstepnego dnia mielismy isc do tego kina. nic. Miala byc imprezka u Joeygo...to npaisal mi(Joey) smsa 0.5h przed faktem ze spotykaja sie tam i tam. Poszlam sobie na spacerek wieczorkiem(2-6am) ti ich spotkalam. cypis mily, ale tak bez wyrazu. potem nic. W sobote beata spotkala go w zanzi. Oczywiscie glowny temat: Kasia. Biorac pod uwage jego wyobraznie i sklonnosc do pochlebiania sobie takie tematy sa conajmniej niekorzystne z powodow jego nadimpretacji sytuacji w nich poruszonych. A wiec w niedziele napisalam mu sms: Hej, mam prosbe- jak sie spotykacie z beata i dziewczynami to zejdzcie z mojego tematyu. Beata najebana nie wie co mowi, wychodza niezle numery a potem lkto tu sobie halo montuje. I MY WCALE SOBIE WSZYTSKIEGO NIE MOWIMY.
ZERO reakcji.
Czapeczka wczoraj powiedzial ze skoro nie ma laski chce miec jakas rezerwe. Zgadzam sie. Koles ktoremu zalezy na dziewczynie nie zachowuje sie tak, nawet jakby mial kompleks 'nie jestem pantoflarzem i nie latam za laskami!!'. Bal by sie ze ja straci. A tu?
CHUJOS CHALOS VANILLA TINY I NA SKOS!!!! :oP
Ale coz.......................... ja tez mam takie swoje jazdy i w sumie nie mialabym nic przeciwko...tylko tez sam fakt. Ze pomysli ze moze mnie miec na zawolanie. Ale coz. Ja tez sie pobawie.
Tylko zeby mi wyszlo :o/ |
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| 08:28am 27/07/2004 |
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humorek troche lepszy rano...tak sobie myslalam..jak fajnie bybylo wyjsc na ulice nie bedac so body concious...albo jak juz ma sie psychike w ta strote skrzywiona to chociaz zeby byc dumnym. tak...tego chce...wyjsc sobie i przejsc sie promenada przy morzu wolna od jakichkolwiek schizow omg what do they think?? |
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| 08:28pm 26/07/2004 |
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mood:  frustrated
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yhh takie dziwne poczucie beznadzieji...ratuje tylko fakt ze nie bylo binge zadnego. juz sobie wyobrazam gdyby byl..ale to chyba te cztery sciany tak na mnie dzialaja. sama sie dlouje...boshe a wszystko dlatego ze...yhh nawet nie chce mi sie pisac. No i laski taka chale odwalily. ale dystans..dystans jest najwazniejszy. hehe hungry eyes wlasnie sobie leci, to tak zeby poczuc sie blizej NIEGO.
mam nadzieje ze to takie temporary..dopoki i get a life. a to sie stanie wiadomo kiedy. teraz za kazdym razem czuje sie silniejsza. i wiem ze moge to zrobic do konca. wkoncu COS musze osiagnac.
Zyje tylko ta grecja..nie wiem jak to bedzie. mam nadzieje ze poznam...ze bedzie FAJNIE..ze mimo wszystko te wakacje beda uratowane.
mam tyle rzeczy do zrobienia, do kupienia przed ta grecja. pewnie sie nie wyrobie. yhh boshe za duzo coli light plynie w zylach a uczucie beznadzieji polaczone z rozdygotaniem jest nie do zniesienia.
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| 02:16am 26/07/2004 |
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mood:  determined music: zmeczenie szumi w glowie
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...no to zmienilam sobie wyglad mojego dzienniczka...sama nie mialabym pojecia jak to uczynic i to mnie wqrza..nie wyglada to jeszcze tak jakbym chciala ale dojde do tego. juz nie bedzie jak dawniej..tym razem dojde do tego..i bede szla dalej!!!!!!! |
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| 08:44am 12/07/2004 |
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Reasons not to break a fast(for me at least)
-u wont be able to stop...its either all or nothing so if u break a fast ull just tons of shit and keep goin
-another three days wasted(day 1- breaking the fast and binging, day 2- binging continued, day 3- waking up, feeling like shit, starting a fast)
-during days 1-3 u will have to stay home coz ure too embarrased to go out
-ure gonna miss out on shit(how the hell r u gonna show ureself at that party where that cute guy was meant to be with all that fat in on ure gut and food in it??)
-ppl are gonna get pissed at u coz ull have to make up stupid excuses to stay home and ull have to lie once again
-ure gonna get back to the point where u just feel like a fucking trashcan and lose that divine lightness u had on the fast(takes at least 2 days to get it back)
-ure gonna gain and feel that fat eating at that beautiful body waiting to break free from the lard |
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| 08:29am 12/07/2004 |
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food is like a drug
...like alcohol, like sex or anything you can get addicted to. Normally after drinking or smoking a joint u just walk away and get on with your life. Sure, u can get drunk sometimes if u overdo, but then u just have a hangover and thats it. Unless ure addicted that is. Same goes with food. Normal ppl just eat what they need or want at the moment and thats that. Binges are common but happen from time to time and dont have much of a consequence. Like a bottle of wine, food can take all the bad things away temporarily. We ppl are addicted to food. We have to starve ourselves and go 'cold turkey' on it. Food is common, we need it to survive...but im talking about the extra that evolve into layers of fat afterwards. Like a heroin addict u break, binge, feel like trash afterwards. You want to believe that u overcame the addiction, so u keep goin eating as little as possible, just the essencial amount, that is now down to a tub of yoghurt eaten spoon by spoon every hour. You dont need more- after all you ARE alive. Just to break free. |
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| 09:34pm 28/06/2004 |
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ja pierdole. juz niemoge. pojebani kurwa niemoge juz normalnie. zlosc zal...nikogo nie mam. sama jestem. pierdolona mia. nienawidze sie. nienawidze swojej psychiki, sposobu myslenia, schizow.nienawidze.nienawidze nienawidziec. |
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| 07:06am 28/06/2004 |
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W:69
U:61
fast day 2 (h. 39) |
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| 02:42pm 22/06/2004 |
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pitatek wieczor. wypilam 2l coli light. went to sleep early due to tiredness and the urge to eat(mum made cauliflower for supper). Woke 2.30. Urge to eat. Did anything to fall asleep till 4.30. Couldnt take it ne more. Ate cauliflower washing it down with half a glass of soft drink. Urge to purge. Went to sleep. Woke in the mporning feeling heavier. Went to grandmothers, then to agas. ate some walnuts and a sandwich with pickles. Knew as soon as i was gonna come home i was gonna binge. Did. About 9pm purged all, even sighns of pickle. Brother comes into room puts a prince polo on my desk. ate. added a big bowl of cornflakes, cheese. Went to sleep. Binged whole of sunday. Didnt purge. Monday. Weight as week before. Got fucking angry hopeless. ate. got determined. about 7pm purged all..really hard so all came out. Then cleaned house for 2 hrs. Today..attempt of fast. lost weight(morning 71.5, now a bit below 70)
current:
W-70
P-80
Pw-78
oponW-90
u-61.5 |
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| 08:41am 19/06/2004 |
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W:68.5
U:60.5
P:79
PW:77
oponW:92 |
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| 05:46pm 18/06/2004 |
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hey all:)
omg im so happy...well actually my fast thingy didnt really work out the way i planned it...but then again i shoulda expected it not to coz ANYTHING i plan always ends up coming out totally differant. The thing with fasting when ure too fat to look in the mirror is that u dont go out ne where coz ure too ashamed of ureself and when u stay home u get bored and u eat. So its a closed circle. I decided that untill i get to a weight where i actually look showable ill just do mia in the mornings and then go to the gym for the rest of the day. The gym im goin to is owned by my best friends parents and its cool coz my best friends an exercise addict so shes there all the time and to tell u the truth not many other ppl go there:] so im really happy coz this worked out and i lost 3.5 kgs(6.6 lbs) in 3 days...AND its actual fat weight coz measurements went down as well. im doing ana after so i dont go yoyo and then im gonna try to get back to normality by bringing food back sloooooooowly and exercising a lot. omg another plan...aaaaaa :o) ok not boring u ne more with my bragging..just so happy i could scream:) |
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| 06:30am 18/06/2004 |
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W: 69.2
P:80
PW:78
U:61
oponW:90
B:100
mia do poludnia i ana potem...2.5kg w dol |
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| 15.06.2004 g. 8.40 |
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| 08:24am 15/06/2004 |
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H:173
W:71.5
U:61.5
P:84
PW:80
B:100
uB:85
day b4: 2 prince polo(425), 1 princessa kokosowa(250), 2 paczki(500), bunch of cornflakes(200), salatka(250), deser bakoma(200), obiad(bigos,ziemnkiaki, jajo sadzone)(500) 4 szklanki soku pomaranczowego.(300) |
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| 04:08am 11/06/2004 |
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hey all..
just started my 14-day fast. 14 days at the lowest then depending on how i feel longer. I need some facts: have any of you fainted, felt really weak or dizzy in a fast? From the info i got about fasts it says that after day 4 youre energetic, you dont feel hunger pains or cravings. The thing is ive never gotten by day 4 so if any of u have n fasting experience u could share itd be great. thanx a bunch |
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| 01:59pm 28/05/2004 |
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hey all...
ummm i seriously cant take this ne more.Ive got my finals now and Ive decided that since I cant fast and study(coz a)i think bout food all the time and its really distracting and b)im at home all the time around food) Ill just give it a rest till my last grade is final.The thing is I think i gained tons,im scared of even weighing myself and theres still 1.5 wks to go.What the fuck am i meant to do? I need my grades to be good.urgh. after the whole studying fest i wanted to go on a 20day fast to compensate and then go on only liquids and exercise 2h a day. I need to make these holidays differant. Im goin for a week to the mountains with some friends(including guys), then to the seaside for another week(with an anorexic friend) and then just outside of town with my ex and like 10 other guys. Im really looking forward to it but the thing is i just cant wait for the fast!Its getting warmer and warmer and its pissing me off coz i cant wear my summer stuff when im a whale and i cant do ne thing about my weight yet either. omg give me te patience!! |
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| 12:10am 18/02/2004 |
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hey ya! do u know how friends end?this is like so sad and ive only seen up to 11th episode of the tenth season! |
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